Hey, my fellow Blossomers! Life is constantly
changing at rapid speeds, going in different directions, one minute you're up, one minute you're, and the next you're banging your head against the wall, you can’t even believe it’s you are experiencing some of these situations. You ask yourself, how, and what did I do to get
here? Where did I go wrong? šLet me be frank, you probably have it better than
most. But if you still feel like you’re in a position to where you think it's impossible to get out of and you feel like everything is falling apart, sit back and let’s
reflect on how we can change that mindset and regain control of you and your
life.
Let’s
start with me first, last year was tough! I lost my office job due to being so
sick that I was in the emergency room at least 2-3 times a week, this happened
in April 2024. I was scheduled to have surgery in May, but my mom was having
surgery in May as well. So, I rescheduled my procedure, so I could be available
to help my mom. May comes, my mom has her surgery and she’s in bad shape, also,
her husband was being investigated for abusing her. The hospital informed me
that my mom would have to come and stay with me or go to a nursing home. Like any
daughter would, I dropped everything to take care of my mom. She moved in with
my kids and I officially on June 5, 2024, At the same time, I was struggling
with mental and physical health and a no-good man. Yes, I had let myself fall
completely to the bottom of the barrel. I had no hope, no courage, I prayed but
it wasn’t with trust, it was more self-pity and victimhood felt. I was
accepting things that I knew were beneath me, the fighting, low rating,
cheating, and disloyalty from my husband the man that was supposed to be my
rock at one of the worst times of my life. My mom was declining, and my
marriage was dead! I was a mess, mentally, I was done! I already suffer with mental
illness, but this here brought me to a dark place. While I’m dealing with
everything in my life, the only money we had was my mom’s check, and the change
from Door Dash. We barely had food, and we still had to pay for medicines, High
Protein Ensure and household needs. Everything was falling at one time! I
stopped going to the doctor and pretty much became a recluse.
When I
tell you, God changes things in an instant, he does! I’m lying in my bed one
day in October 2024, and a feeling came over me and I looked at my life and
realized I accepted everything that was happening to me. I was a part of the
problem and for things to change, I have to change. (How Cliche?!) I grabbed my
journal and jumped back into my routine with no hesitation, I wrote until I
couldn’t anymore, I read my bible and prayed. This time, it was from a place of
power and authority. Being the woman that God designed me to be! I eventually got
up, put myself together, jumped in my car and just took a ride. I left my oldest daughter
with my mom. I had woken up from the deep slumber that I put myself in and grabbed
my wheel and made a sharp left turn, my life was not for anyone else to control, anymore.
I stopped the bullshit with my soon to be ex-husband, I told him if I was going
to be single, I might as well be single! I had no fear of his reaction or what
he would do, I didn’t care. I was tired and I refused to take anything less
than I deserved moving forward.
I empowered myself (Believe it or not, I was on speed dial for 2 so-called friends, even though they knew I was going through the ringer. That’s a whole different story) Little by little, I started reclaiming my life and asking God for restoration and Upgrades. So, I’m gaining my strength mentally, but my mom is declining faster, by time it’s November 2024. She’s falling and not eating, just not herself anymore. My daughter who’s 21 and I was in constant go mode, even my 19-year-old son stepped. We weren’t sleeping correctly, we would hear a noise in middle of the night all 3 of us would meet in the hall, thinking my mom fell. One night, my mom actually fell and hit her head, this happened January 2025. Mind you, the axle on my car broke in December 2024, so we called the ambulance, she was admitted the hospital for a couple of nights, a nurse called and asked if I wanted help for when my mom came home. I truly believe that this was a setup for what was to come. Well, I was told the home health service was a part of Hospice (Not the regular hospice but an extension of the service.) and they'll start coming to the house to help 2-3 times a week. In less than a month my mom wasted away and passed on February 4, 2025. I think that I was intentionally misled due to how emotional I was and the despair I had every time I spoke with someone, but little did I know, God was building me up. Now if this would’ve happened last year, it would’ve broken me down to the eternal pits but at this time I was able to stand. God, put his hands in the midst to make me stronger because he knew he was taking his child home.
This is
where discipline and a strong mindset came into play, I was able to keep going
even though I lost the person that has been there for me since I was born, she
was more than a mother. There’s no name for that type of love!
My apologies for this long post, but I want you to understand that there’s nothing that could stop you from overcoming any and all obstacles. First, get up! For some people that’s the hardest part because you have no idea which way to turn, what to do, or you're just tired of it all, life is lifeing. Trust me when I say, making the decision to just get up and move. One step leads to another step, spend the time in silence, enjoy the sun or clouds, write down how you feel and what causes those feelings, pray and ask for help. Do that deep clean of your home, that ALMOST every “life coach” tells you to do because it does actually work, for me I was able to let go of things, get organized and start to dream and have desires again. I now see that some of the things I went through were because I accepted things that weren’t up to my value and standards. I took on everyone’s problems to ignore mines. I took the word “Loyalty” seriously, while others seem to never have heard the word before. I actually had to stop pretending that I loved myself and face the fact that I didn’t even know who I was. I started from the bottom and worked my way to where I am now. I'm healing. This journey will never be complete, it takes time and patience with yourself to learn to trust you, again. Take one day at a time, enjoy the process of learning to accept and love who you really are. Allow yourself to buy that new dress, book, or whatever your desire is at this moment. Free yourself, give yourself the permission to enjoy life!
I will
link below some of the things I’ve used to help me better my head space and to
just feel like my life is filled with pure opulence. Change your mindset and
you’ll change your life. I’m routing for you, and you got this. š❤️
Closing Notes: Everyone faces a challenge or two, that doesn’t mean it’s the
end. Every storm passes. Stay positive, focused, and prayed up! Your desires
are your potential, and you can have everything you can imagine, just trust the
process, and keep moving forward.
Please add to the conversation. Tell us ways to improve our thinking in certain life situations or how to continue growing personally, when hail is falling from the sky. Let's conversate!
Journals:
Prayer and gratitude Books:
Lighting:
I’ll add more to the list periodically, just check back to see what’s new to create ambiance and a relaxing atmosphere. I LOVE UPGRADING MY SPACE!!!!
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-As we grow, some of the conversions and topics will be a little deep and we’ll have discussions on things that may remind you of some good
times or bad times, but the main focus is for us to continue to grow and flourish
through anything. My hopes are that we are able have fun and open up, that we can see the endless possibilities ahead of us. šIf you have any topic suggestions, please email them to me, I’ll
be happy to start the conversation.
Having time to yourself and doing something you love, such as; crafting, painting, writing, developing, etc, is also another thing to boost you mentally
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